before this i was planning to close this blog...tpi since x tertutup2 lagi...terasa la plak menggatal nak post something....

nothing much,it just that aq rse serabut latetly (as always) n mcam bese, xder tempat lain, aq merapu la kat tempat nieee..a place dimana aq xperlu bercerita face 2 face dengan sesape..

aq sekarang da officially senior tahun 2 F**I, tapi langsung xder sifat2 senior..muka junior pown bru skali tengok..tapiii ADE AQ KESAH KEW^^...bad me....i know..

AARRRRRGHHHH!!! serabutnya otak nieee!!!apasal makin meningkat umur makin bermasalah aq nie...things turn out to be more and more and more complicated....kenapa susah sangat nak faham dengan situasi and kenapa susah sangat mereka nak faham dengan situasi yang aq alami nie???

dulu, kalau luahkan dekat sesapa hati da lega...all the burden immediately vanished (it happens sometimes but most of the time....Bubbling lebey) but nowadays, hampeh..makin menjadi2 ada la....

kenapa mereka x boleh faham yang aq sekarang sedang mencuba....aq bukannya duk goyang kaki duk kat umah makan tido makan tido...aq x kata aq da fully matang n i dont want all childish thinggy dalam hidup aq..it just , aq kalu boleh nak kurang kan...dont ask me why..even aq pown xtaw....maybe perubahan dan peningkatan umur kowt...

cakap la korang nak cakap aq nie mengada2 ke ape...this is about my life...and i cant keep all the serabut stuff on my head alone...

since aq 2nd year student, i've decided to stay outside...alhamdulillah, i got the place but somehow, my rumah sewa adalah ketagori rumah sewa yang mahal...tpi rumah setinggan je....x faham la dengan people nowadays....susah sangat ke nak buat baik..i mean, as student xkan x ley tolong kami by kurangkan sedikit bayaran tuk umah sewa nie....rm700 for rumah which is kawasan tu diorang cakap kadaran sewa adalah dalam rm 450...okay, find fully furnish..tpi doesnt mean naikkan mahal mcam tu....wat la people lat KT nie...TAMAK betul....susah ke nak tolong bangsa sendiri??nie la masalah bangsa melayu kita sekarang..bukan nak bersepadu...nak mengejar kemewahan je semata2.....ini umum ye, sape makan chili dia la yg rase pedas...

so back to the topic...da la x nak kurang kan, pastu berdalih je lebey...ary yang aq kne bayar umah sewa tu...bukan main laju je tarik duit dri tangan aq nie...cakap nak nego balik sal umah sewa dalam masa 2-3 ary lagi..tpi skunk??seminggu lebey da, tpi hampeh!..dapat je duit terus senyap..dulu bukan main berjanji itu la ini la....hurmmmm....sudah terang masih bersuluh...udah2 la nak bengang menegakkan benang yang basah....

bukan aq xnak carik rumah lain..tpi masalah nye, time kemas umah nie pown kitaowang da super duper nak pengsan walaupun bukan semua orang dalam umah nie yang buat keje2 tu..tpi abaikan....da la sekarang da nak masuk mid sem da, so xkan la x faham...bukan senang nak deal dengan life as a student U taw...aq x a nak mengaku aq merungut... aq just letey taw....sangat letey dengan drama harian aq nie...sampai satu tahap aq nak lempang je owang yang cuba buat lawak bodo yang memang serupa bodah nie....(maafkan saya, emosi saya tidak la sestabil dlu, so kepada sesape yang da x tahan sila2 la leave this page).....pastu,law dapat umah, nak kne deal ngan itu la ini la....belum tentu lagi nasib kali tu lebey baik dri asal...

da tahu idup kat umah sewa sbgai student U nie beramai2 so, aq cadangkan sape yang belum pernah lgi yang duduk umah sewa, SILA BACE BALIK BUKU AGAMA KE APE, TENTANG ADAT2 KETIKA DUDUK DIRUMAH SEWA BERSAMA2 BUDAK2 U YANG LAIN....kalu xder buku, otak kan ade, x kan xley berfikir mane satu perlu mana satu x perlu...mane satu salah mane satu betul...

P/S: aq x tujukan kepada mana2 pihak, aq disini just menyampaikan nasihat semata berdasarkan pengalaman mengajar kita...

aq yang sem nie aq da blajar...asal aq rase cam cepat je sem nie berlalu.....nasihat seterusnya adalah SILA BELAJAR UNTUK MEMAHAMI BUKAN MENGHAFAL UNTUK LULUS SEMATA2..... aq da penat la blajar menda yang same tpi still x taw ape ke benda tu...x ke bangang kalau seorang manusia yang bergelar student x tahu benda yang da diajar sejak sekolah sampai la skrang, tpi masih lgi menghafal untuk test n exam...

SO RENUNG2 KAN LA...aq pown da ngantuk da t law aq nak bgi 'nasihat' lgi aq post la lagi....bile??bergantung pada mood yang ad...

1.24am_friday

while enough~

fuh!...dah nak masuk bulan puasa da rupenyer...which means da berhabuk da blog aq nie..since da lame da x berspeaking sume da aq hampir lupe( berkarat otak aq duk kat umah doing nothing)

if i'm not mistaken, my last post was on may.tu pun time tgh exam.so so x faham.time exam ade plak mase nak post, p skunk dah ade byk mase xnak plak....=> what can i say,mood x menentu...hehhehe...

so since tangan aq da menaip n aq plak rase nak bercerita,mari la kengkawan duk bersila kat depan lappy sambil dengar aq bercerita menda yg x berfaedah niee...*___*v

so after abih exam n ALSO perkara yang last skali after exam yg aq kne berdepan PUBLIC SPEAKING, aq n member2 aq yang lain g la meng-enjoy-kan diri sendiri DENGAN mengemas dan memunggah barang untuk diangkat dan dibawa ke stor umah sewa (which is almost super duper jauh dri umah sewa aq tu) ukan dekat umah sewa aq pown, dekat stor OWNER umah sewa aq tu..fuh...p nak wat camner kan..nak xnak terpaksa la.

so i went home on 6 may , which happened terkene plak ngan bufday aq...so HAPPY SUPER DUPER AGAIN BELATED BUFDAY TO ME!....i was supposed to back home with aq nyer member,but UNfortunately skejab jew...suku jalan jew,atas sbb2 tertentu.....soo pulang la aq ke kema*man bersendirian sambil terpaksa menempuh perjalanan yg sedikit sebyk lama lagi MEMBOSANKAN......

so balik dari umah bermula la hidup baru dan lama aq sabagai pengumpul lemak...perghhhh..kalu dapat jual nie da lama aq jadik kaya-raya..^^

jadik tu bulan may_aq mmg 100% jadik mengumpul lemak yg berjaya

pertengahan bulan 6 n 7_aq jadik employee dekat kantin skolah...hari2 keje aq mengata budak2 n also cikg*2 kat stu.....maaf la ye...tapi tu x lama,hanyer bertahan sampai sebulan je...sbb sekarang da msuk 2 mggu aq berhenti kje also atas sebab2 tertentu..........................

so life aq xder la bosan sangan walaupun aq sendirik rase bosan..ahhehehhehe...but thanks to mereka2 yang terlibat yang selalu buat hidup aq nie naik turun naik turun dan terus naik naik sampai da x trun2....hehehheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

another and another bla bla~

fuhu-fuhu....2 papers down and i still got 4 more's waiting for me^*sigh~

tomorrow(23-04-2011) is my third exam (mechanic and waves) followed by measurement the next day...wish me luck k*wink wink...

yeah,some people will wondering why am i still have time online,posting something don't give any benefits for my final..well,it's up to me right..u have no right to judge me..hehhehe..bad jokes..

of course this wont give any benefits to me,but still i considered it as a release-stress time..hehehhe..since my week is not that gud as i want..hurrmmm...can't wait to leave this room.i can't stand it...staying here turns me into a bad person.i mean really really into a bad person..i don't want to be rude but yeah i am rude..i don't freaking care about them all anymore.screw them..yeah screw them all...i don't care and of course u all also don't care if i care because this is my business not urs^^...

it's okay if they say im cold.my heart as cold as ice i don't mind.it's a sign i'm giving u where i called "STAY AWAY FROM ME"....

well back to the undefined topic,soo after measurement i was planning to pay a visit with my frenz of course,at hospital as i told my last last last post before..hoping she's doing fine and need not go through 3rd surgery...can't wait to see u again..^^...

sooo pen-off now,my break is almost done(time out) so so need to get back to my study.AGAIN......

i just checked my old friends's blog,

looks like they all move on,

turning them into a better person,i guess..

so why can't i??

why i'm still here,standing at the same place,

carrying the same me.

what i should i do, so i can let go of my past?

i keep on thinking till my head hurts.

how envy i am seeing them with the new look in the face,

the new style,new character...

now i look ridiculous,envy over something that i should not to.

i want to be with my old friends,but at the same time i don't want to.

because i'm scared that i'm gonna hurt their feeling for being silence for the whole time we meet. i'm might not talk because i'm too scare to talk.

having you all around me,with the same look but difference character,

i don't even want to imagine it.

because the more i thought about it,the more i hate it.

BECAUSE ALL THE MEMORIES THAT I TRIED TO KEEP WILL FADE AWAY..

i think i'm just a kind of girl who still living with the past memories....

it's just who i am..

all i want is listen to the music,

while dreaming a wonderful one.

with no one around.

listen till i fall asleep,

with the wind embraced me.

till then,i shall be calm....

already final meh??

wow,i don't know how to describe my feeling right now,my mind still say the final exam is just around the corner,actually IT IS AROUND THE CORNER!!,its tomorrow(17/4/2011)...i'm not freak out,am i??I AM NOT FREAK OUT *___*v

i'm cool,just cool...i feel gud.....

yeah, orite i'm freak out now...OMG!!OMG!!!..what should i do???hurmmm....

I AM JUST GREAT BEBEYH!!!....

thanks to all the lectures coz these few days banyak buat test...yang membuat kan aq nie da naik tepu dengan test dan juge exam..hehhehe..at least aq x freak out macam sem dlu(hopefully la^^) so this time i feel much much better..also thanks to my friends yang banyak membantu aq,especially to eda yang banyak teman aq spend berjam2 kat library untuk mentelaah..hehehhe..unfortunately,she can't berjuang dengan kitowang sekali for this final exam* akan ambik exam awal sem depan atas sbb2 tertentu....pew2 pown,we all here pray for you...mintak2 operation kali nie berjalan dengan lancar dan cepat2 la sembuh yer...coz i'm soooo missing u here..boring tul x der ko..huwaaaaa!!! T___T..got nobody yang aq selesa tuk lepaking kat library..terpaksa duk stu sowang2...huhuhuhuh....

soo my first paper tomorrow is material science_the most panic paper.hopefully i can score this paper so that i don't have to repeat..i don'n even dare to think about repeat this paper..*gantung diri...since scope pown da dapat ,so harap2 dapat jawap la...bab kate my sis,since i got the scope already,there's no such excuse not to score...YES MEM!!..i'll try my best..ehehheeh...

my 2nd paper is kenegaraan follow by

3.mechanics and wave

4.the next day is measurement

5.sensor

and the last one is instrument...

though the last is instrument,still i got to prepare my outline for persuasive and informative speech..huhuhuhu..pray for me k..soo so nervous about the speech.becoz i have to speak in front of the people..hate it most!

soo i don't want to think yet about the plan after the final,still i can't think even i want to...i'm not allowed to..hehehhe..for this sem,aq just nak focus habis tuk final. SO wish me luck k!!