the other side of me

in the middle of havoc,my eyes could see him immediately.

i don't love him because i already fell in love with somebody else.

but some how i think hes special to me.

i felt like i've been cheating on person that i love.

am i really love that person??

i'm waiting for 8 years and 9 days....

i tried everything i could searching for him.

NONE.

some people told me to forget him and start searching for the new one.

still i can't.

because i'm still waiting...

i never felt this is a kind of love monkey,

because i never felt that.

if before this i'll vomit if i talk about this,now i'm 20 and i think i'm old enough to let it out.

because i don't want it remain secret anymore.

i'm tired of it.

the promise that i kept.

let just considered he forgot his promises,and

already found someone better than me.

for this time being,i might not searching for someone yet,

cause i've responsibility to carry on.

it's a lie if i'm telling you that i will never wait for you anymore.

i give you a little chance because of my promise.

the promises that causes a lot of pain in me....