misery right??

its weird isn't it??once you grown up you'll never be your old self anymore.

you can't turn back the clock,so do yourself.no matter how hard i'm trying to be my old self, i will never able to reach it.the new me is the character that i had build long long ago.its the character i have chosen to be.still,why am i feel so empty deep deep in my heart.the emptiness that made me becoming someone that i,myself didn't even recognize it.

its good isn't it; less talk more action.but me: less talk n so do action.i don't want to hate it because i don't want to.but still i dislike it.i don't want let the time handle because i hate waiting...

day by days i start to keep it in myself,i started to disbelieve people around me.i can't trust them though i want to.it's bitter to swallow it by myself.sometimes i just wish i close my eyes n when i open it everything turn to be just a dream,a painful one.