is this me??

i don't want him in my dream,

not even once,

i don't want him in my mind,

not in single day,

i don't want him replying my message,

although i want it so freaking bad...

i don't want you to be so kind,

because it gives me a hope,

a hope that will never be mine.

i don't want you to be this close,

although i might crying if you left me behind.

i don't want to have a love between us,

even a friend's love,

because it might turning me into the other side of me

that i don't want it to be.

this reckless things..

what suppose i do with you??

leaving you made me feel empty,

close to you made my heart in pain,

be with you is my only wish,

apart from you is the best choice though.