bEtween a gooD FrieNd And A baD frIend

i never face this kind of situation before...

so it's new for me, which is I don't know how to handle it.

I end up with not talking and it's cause a lot of pain deep deep in my heart.

I hate myself cause i can't help her, i hate myself for being too care about her although she cause a lot of pain in my heart..i hate myself cause i can't hate her.

I might not a good friend, but i do, i do concern about her..she still my friend though.

there's no way a friend left their friend behind.

why can't she understand what i'm try to do??is she misunderstood what i'm trying to do??

i might not a good friend, but still i'll help them if they need me lend my hand_ without any hesitation I will..i will be there for them(insyaAllah)....but why everytime i tried to help her she just walk away like i was trying to be a hypocrite to her.

I don't know how to refuse,i don't know how get mad with someone for too long, i don't know how to cheer people up, but still i'm trying...

i tried to be a good friend to everyone, but it's harder than i thought..

i think maybe i just should stay be a bad friend..if that makes her happy.